Flow

This is supposed to my thoughts at the end of the day and hence, an open blog which will be updated regularly. - (Inspired by Anupreet)

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Bullet number indicates the day number.

1. What is non-violence? Is using a vehicle also violence because what is the process of its manufacture and running? I clearly remember Goenkaji sharing that your source of income might not directly be violence but if it indirectly leads to it, still it is being a part of it. If yes so can we just walk till our destination? Ok in the same city a distance of half an hour will be covered in 2 hours, but that 2 hours can be meditation, those 2 hours can be prayer time. But what about other cities? Hm. A distance coverable overnight will take at least 2 weeks, and we will have to stay at people who offer their homes. A huge experiment. I have started skipping one way of my 15 minutes bus journey and  walk(fast) with some attentive breathing and some time for prayers takes around 45 minutes. 

2. An idea creates a revolution, not by an organization. All the revolutions in world history are created always by an idea, never an organization. By restricting an idea to an organization, we take out its revolutionary potential.

3. Letting universe flow through you, and not being able to clear your doubts, but still feeling bliss?
4.  Some noble people I met, they praise you when they see potential of growth, they criticize(in a very subtle and loving manner) when they see an even higher potential in you. And when they see perfection, they just share their love through their metta, no words. 
5. What is correct and wrong(judging) and is there anything like it. Somebody shared banging the head in wall is wrong and not doing is correct. Although the answer sounded good but my heart didn't accept it that time too and today the same answer returned. I thought that actually even the banging of head is also not wrong, it is harmful to us, yes but not wrong. Then I thought banging of head is not harmful to us, but only our body. Then the thought went that it is not harmful to our body also, but only a part of body- head, then realized not also head, but only a few bones, tissues and cells. So is breaking of bones/tissues/cells wrong? No. Every second, our body degenerates and many cells and tissues break down anyways. So 2 points, first it is not wrong, but only harmful and second, it is not even harmful, but an artificial increase in a natural process and harm depends on how well the body reacts.
   Then I had the feeling that all this sounds a bit like Vipassana. Breaking every process to smaller and smaller level and observing. Although this mental process doesn't create any great difference in life but just like Goenkaji says, experience is at 3 levels- 1.Audio, 2. Mental jugglery 3. Really experiencing. And none of the 3 are wrong, a person needs to first hear, it takes him one step closer to truth, but shouldn't stop there and move at 2nd level and think about it, and again not stop at that and move to the 3rd level. Today I felt I moved from 1st level to the 2nd level. Although not the best stage but definitely a growth. Hopefully, I would be able to use this to reduce my judging. I realized everything is what it is. It is neither correct nor wrong but simply what it is. There is no good, no bad, just a state of existence, and a milestone in the journey. 
6. Why are you doing/talking what you are doing/talking? Only for other person's/ society's benefit or you too have some benefit. If you feel it is only for others and nothing for you (no learnings), then you are definitely doing something wrong. Stop doing it now.
7. I am immortal and no one can kill me.  A bold statement indeed. "I" the ego will die, "I" the body and mind will die but the "I" the spirit, "I" part of the divine energy, "I" the idea cannot die. A person can kill my physical presence, but the idea, the intention and the love I let out just cannot be contained, forget destroying it. It will keep rippling up, becoming bigger and bigger. Infact, "I" am just a part of someone who lived before me, not only in terms of DNA, but also as a part of thoughts. Someone thought something, did some acts, those kept rippling through various platforms and I am just an image of millions before me, and I will be reflected in millions ahead of me, and there cannot be any distinction made as to who is who and what part of whose is in whom. And after some mental jugglery you will realize that eventually we will cross the  constraints of time and space and you were there since beginning of time, are here now and will be here since the end of time. You were here every moment and at the same moment, you yourself are at each and every place of the universe. Wow!!! A Jonathan Livingston Seagull moment. Wow. :)
8. Why do we talk? What's the purpose of talking? And do we talk on for that purpose? Because presently most of the ill will is spread because we talk something which others don't find pleasant. 
9. The very purpose of having to listen someone's advice, witnessing someone perform some act in some  circumstances is so that you when faced with such a situation later in your life can act on the basis of additional information available due to your presence in past and a chance to do a better act now with more love. It doesn't matter what you did in past or felt in past with someone, what matters is what you do now, when you are in the situation. Just learn and keep learning.

Writing this after around 7 months:

1. What is wealth? I feel anything which I have is wealth. But then that brings me to the question of Who am I? Am I the body? If no, then I have a body, then my 2 eyes, 2 ears, 1 heart and 1 brain and all parts of body are wealth and that way, all of us humans have equal wealth. Next then Am I mind? If no, then I have a mind, then the mind is my wealth. Having the ability to give, having the ability of receive gracefully is wealth. Ability to love people is wealth. Infact, even the ability of Smile is wealth? And if ability to Smile, ability to love is wealth, then we only know how wealthy we are. :)